Well, hello there. Hello from the capital of Bolivia, La Paz.
It’s been a rough few days and I’m taking this opportunity to post because it’s pouring with rain outside and I’m bored.
Three days ago I lost my passport, camera with all my photos on from 6 weeks of South America, mp3 player and loads of other little things.
The only thing I give two shits about is my camera. Once in a lifetime photos of the most incredible things I’ve ever experienced in my life. Gone. Forever.
I’d be lying if I said I was anything but completely devastated.
I’ve gone through the stages of grievance and I’m trying to accept what’s done is done but I’m really struggling.
I’ve bought a new camera so I can start again.
I have been mentally beating myself up about this since it happened because it’s completely my fault. A lapse in concentration and I was punished in the harshest way possible.
I’ve not slept well since it happened and I don’t know whether to cry or bash my head against a brick wall.
I suspect neither will help.
I just have to keep moving on. Physically and mentally and emotionally.
I’m trying to find some perspective. I have my health, I have my phone, access to money and the memories.
I still feel like a complete fucking idiot. Ashamed and embarrassed. I hope I read this back one day and these feelings will be a distant memory.
I’ve got Peru and Machu Picchu coming up so there’s plenty to look forward to.
In other news, the previous week was fantastic. I met a group of people who I became really close with. I didn’t want to leave them and, pleasantly, they didn’t want me to leave.
But I have so much ground to cover between now and July that I had to go.
My reasoning being I don’t want my trip to be ruled by the people I meet en route. Everyone you meet is moving; whether it’s tomorrow or next month. So, to get attached to people isn’t necessarily a great idea.
I did get attached and it was a real wrench to leave.
Right, so that’s anger, depression and sadness all covered in this post. Excellent. Good work.
Despite all of this, South America is officially my favourite part of the world.
I was thinking last night, despite all my woes and troubles, would I rather still be at home, back in London being generally miserable and not experiencing life and what the world has to offer?
The answer was absolutely not.
So, ya know, there’s that.
Let’s hope some better things are coming my way and that I get over my loss quickly.
As always, I hope you are all doing well.